Now theres only one thing that I am gonna do all the time .. work, work and work. Not necessarily the type of work thats considered as dull and boring, but rather any type of work, it could be even something that interests me. For example work on the computers or on the robotics or say read a book. Do anything that you like or are interested in. Just that don't simply sit around idle and waste time.
An empty mind is an evil's place.
Sunday, October 15, 2006
Friday, October 13, 2006
Thursday, October 12, 2006
Friday, September 01, 2006
Sunday, August 27, 2006
Am ashamed...
well, its been a real long time since I ve STUDIED, but the fact was that till date it wasnt much to me...
I mean i never actually did anything to work upon it.. all I did everytime was to cry over the spilled milk n then wait for the next time and repeat everything all over again...
But today, after a REAL long time I was ashamed of my situation....
I was there in my friends room, and his roommates were talking about what all have they finished, ( ammm, well the cycle tests are from tomorrow) and the smile on his face, the admire which his roommates had for him, put me to shame..
they weren't mockng me or anything, but it was the first time that I felt real ashamed of myself. I man I was supposed to be there at that position, of being talked about by my peers in that way, and here I was, another inconsequent being who has somehow managed to scrap his way into one of the India's premiere institute.
Well, I guess its never too late to make a new beginning.
and I guess I had all this feeling only cause I have really been studying for the couple of last days.
Well its a little late to do well in this cycles, but still I can improve upon my score as compared to my last years performance.
Well at the moment my blog has restricted access to just one person, so I ll use this to say to you that for once am real sorry for myself as in what have I done to myself.
Time to mend my ways.
Well will blog to you in details after the tests get over on thursday.
Take care.
Love u.
Bye.
well, its been a real long time since I ve STUDIED, but the fact was that till date it wasnt much to me...
I mean i never actually did anything to work upon it.. all I did everytime was to cry over the spilled milk n then wait for the next time and repeat everything all over again...
But today, after a REAL long time I was ashamed of my situation....
I was there in my friends room, and his roommates were talking about what all have they finished, ( ammm, well the cycle tests are from tomorrow) and the smile on his face, the admire which his roommates had for him, put me to shame..
they weren't mockng me or anything, but it was the first time that I felt real ashamed of myself. I man I was supposed to be there at that position, of being talked about by my peers in that way, and here I was, another inconsequent being who has somehow managed to scrap his way into one of the India's premiere institute.
Well, I guess its never too late to make a new beginning.
and I guess I had all this feeling only cause I have really been studying for the couple of last days.
Well its a little late to do well in this cycles, but still I can improve upon my score as compared to my last years performance.
Well at the moment my blog has restricted access to just one person, so I ll use this to say to you that for once am real sorry for myself as in what have I done to myself.
Time to mend my ways.
Well will blog to you in details after the tests get over on thursday.
Take care.
Love u.
Bye.
Thursday, August 24, 2006
- Don't trudge mud into the house of love.
"I think you are gonna find, when this shit is over... I think you're gonna find yourself one smilin' motherfucker. The thing is Butch, right now, you've got ability. But painful as it may be, ability don't last. And your days are just about over. Now that's a hard motherfuckin' fact of life. But it's a fact of life your ass is gonna hafta get realistic about. See this business is filled to the brim with unrealistic motherfuckers. Motherfuckers who thought their ass would age like wine. If you mean it turns to vinegar, it does. If you mean it gets better with age, it don't. Besides Butch, how many fights you think you got left in you anyway? Two? Boxers don't have an 'old timer's day.' You came close, but you never made it, and if you were gonna make it, you woulda made it before now." Everything passes away - suffering, pain, blood, hunger, pestilence. The sword will pass away too, but the stars will still remain when the shadows of our presence and our deeds have vanished from the earth. There is no man who does not know that. Why, then, will we not turn our eyes towards the stars? Why? ~ Mikhail Bulgakov, from The White Guard
LOVE
"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love". ~ Neil Gaiman
"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love". ~ Neil Gaiman
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
Ahhh..
well I have done whatever I intended to do but I never knew I ll sound like such a loser..
Or like someone says.. Do I choose to be a loser??
anyways...
had stomach ache since last evening, so didnt take any dinner or snacks, just had a tea at around 1,
N now am hungary.. but I guess all shops will be closed now...
N have got no biscuits left with me in room either ..
`:-(
I miss home...
bye
well I have done whatever I intended to do but I never knew I ll sound like such a loser..
Or like someone says.. Do I choose to be a loser??
anyways...
had stomach ache since last evening, so didnt take any dinner or snacks, just had a tea at around 1,
N now am hungary.. but I guess all shops will be closed now...
N have got no biscuits left with me in room either ..
`:-(
I miss home...
bye
I dont know....
I dont know whether whatever am gonna do now is right or not...
In most probability, its gonna be bad for me..
real bad...
But what do you do when theres no one around..??
And you feel as if what all you have done was better not done..!!
Theres no one around to share with.. Actually it would be weired but I dont wanna share myself with anyone anymore except for one...
Sorry Annie, whenever you read this.. Am not mailing you coz I dont wanna disturb you right now..
I guess your hands are already full with quite a lot to do at college...
I really dont wanna trouble you anymore..
Am sorry....
The moment I thought about it, my left eye started twitching...
I dont know whether thats bad or not..
But I asked the same question to myself whether it was bad or what...
and the answer I got from myself was that I dont really care how bad is it, I just have to do it...
Am getting nowhere in right now..
God only knows whats gonna be my destiny...
Take care world...
N sleep well...
Good night..!!
I dont know whether whatever am gonna do now is right or not...
In most probability, its gonna be bad for me..
real bad...
But what do you do when theres no one around..??
And you feel as if what all you have done was better not done..!!
Theres no one around to share with.. Actually it would be weired but I dont wanna share myself with anyone anymore except for one...
Sorry Annie, whenever you read this.. Am not mailing you coz I dont wanna disturb you right now..
I guess your hands are already full with quite a lot to do at college...
I really dont wanna trouble you anymore..
Am sorry....
The moment I thought about it, my left eye started twitching...
I dont know whether thats bad or not..
But I asked the same question to myself whether it was bad or what...
and the answer I got from myself was that I dont really care how bad is it, I just have to do it...
Am getting nowhere in right now..
God only knows whats gonna be my destiny...
Take care world...
N sleep well...
Good night..!!
Monday, August 14, 2006
Hi again...
well bloggin after quite some time now..
Actually my college net conncn was acting up a lil bit weired..
so it was kinda tuff to do normal work...
N the funny part was even my best friend had kinda same problem..
I mean even her net conncn both at home n college were kinda actin up..
weired na..
anyways...
am kinda happy..
Y??
well y not??
y should one need a reason to be happy..
The weathers gr8 outside..
its cool breezey morning with rains on the horizon...
N am missin my best friend..
but the sweet memories of us together in the past makes me feel happy..
luv u annie..
what else..
??
well got myself a 4.1 speaker system...
so wont have to reach in for those headphones everytime I wanna listen to something nice...
My college rooms not spacious enough for a 5.1.. :-(
anyways.. am happy...
I guess am finally gettin to what n where I wanted to be..
well not a bad start..
especially after my acads of the last three yrs..
which at its best were nothing but..
better left unsaid about...
anyways hopefully.. will be back soon..
take care..
bye..
well bloggin after quite some time now..
Actually my college net conncn was acting up a lil bit weired..
so it was kinda tuff to do normal work...
N the funny part was even my best friend had kinda same problem..
I mean even her net conncn both at home n college were kinda actin up..
weired na..
anyways...
am kinda happy..
Y??
well y not??
y should one need a reason to be happy..
The weathers gr8 outside..
its cool breezey morning with rains on the horizon...
N am missin my best friend..
but the sweet memories of us together in the past makes me feel happy..
luv u annie..
what else..
??
well got myself a 4.1 speaker system...
so wont have to reach in for those headphones everytime I wanna listen to something nice...
My college rooms not spacious enough for a 5.1.. :-(
anyways.. am happy...
I guess am finally gettin to what n where I wanted to be..
well not a bad start..
especially after my acads of the last three yrs..
which at its best were nothing but..
better left unsaid about...
anyways hopefully.. will be back soon..
take care..
bye..
Monday, August 07, 2006
HI once again..
Its 0323 in the morning rt now...
Well we had a small fire incident at arnd 2230 hrs last nite so as aresult theres no current in hostels..
so I decided to spend the nite in the net lab..
not bad...
I mean i wanted to study for my exams starting from aug 11, and lo theres no power..
N ppl say tht I dont study LOL..
Its 0323 in the morning rt now...
Well we had a small fire incident at arnd 2230 hrs last nite so as aresult theres no current in hostels..
so I decided to spend the nite in the net lab..
not bad...
I mean i wanted to study for my exams starting from aug 11, and lo theres no power..
N ppl say tht I dont study LOL..
Monday, July 24, 2006
ITS 430 in morn.. n m bored..
well my RMI workshop, i.e, Robotics n Machines Intelligence workshop starts today at 1830 hrs..
am gonna be there both as being a part of the core comittee of the RMI second yr. n also as a participant as well as an observer.. coz very soon we will have to organize a similar workshop for the first years on owr own ..i.e, with neglegible help from our seniors..
Lets hope for a good response..
Was scolded off by the seniors yesterday n now m back to work ( n studies too..)
:-)
thats another story.. may be sometime else..
bye..
well my RMI workshop, i.e, Robotics n Machines Intelligence workshop starts today at 1830 hrs..
am gonna be there both as being a part of the core comittee of the RMI second yr. n also as a participant as well as an observer.. coz very soon we will have to organize a similar workshop for the first years on owr own ..i.e, with neglegible help from our seniors..
Lets hope for a good response..
Was scolded off by the seniors yesterday n now m back to work ( n studies too..)
:-)
thats another story.. may be sometime else..
bye..
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
ATHEISM..
well the first time this term squarly hit me in the face when I was travelling in a bus with Amrita n we passed along a temple.. she just did a naman n I followed the suite.. nothing extra-ordinary .. just that thereafter she commented that she thought I was an atheist.. well that caught me by surprise...
I had never been an ardent believer or otherwise.. Had always been going to temples n used to worship at the temple at our house(we have a Lord Shiva's temple at my place in Patna)..
but that was all when I was a kid..
At my b'day this year, I wanted to go the kaali bari at sec 26 Noida, but more out of more consideration for some person rather than seeing the temple as such..
I mean I really don't kno when was the last time I REALLY went to a temple.. but that doesn't make me an atheist.. rt??
HEs there.. n whtever HE does is for the better..
Am not exactly with the way my life is rt now.. but I think GOD only help them who help themselves..
N the only one responsible for where ever I am today is no one but me only.. I cud ve had been in IIT but I chose the wrong way.. my fault..
anyways am still at a hell lot better place than I worked for.. that I guess is GOD's grace or pure luck..
So its time I mend my ways.. N start off for a new future..
N I seek HIS blessing for that..
well the first time this term squarly hit me in the face when I was travelling in a bus with Amrita n we passed along a temple.. she just did a naman n I followed the suite.. nothing extra-ordinary .. just that thereafter she commented that she thought I was an atheist.. well that caught me by surprise...
I had never been an ardent believer or otherwise.. Had always been going to temples n used to worship at the temple at our house(we have a Lord Shiva's temple at my place in Patna)..
but that was all when I was a kid..
At my b'day this year, I wanted to go the kaali bari at sec 26 Noida, but more out of more consideration for some person rather than seeing the temple as such..
I mean I really don't kno when was the last time I REALLY went to a temple.. but that doesn't make me an atheist.. rt??
HEs there.. n whtever HE does is for the better..
Am not exactly with the way my life is rt now.. but I think GOD only help them who help themselves..
N the only one responsible for where ever I am today is no one but me only.. I cud ve had been in IIT but I chose the wrong way.. my fault..
anyways am still at a hell lot better place than I worked for.. that I guess is GOD's grace or pure luck..
So its time I mend my ways.. N start off for a new future..
N I seek HIS blessing for that..
Monday, July 17, 2006
Sunday, July 16, 2006
Monday, July 10, 2006
Sunday, July 09, 2006
heloos to d world...
well here i am back again to d online world...
well now that am used to broadband at college.. life seemed so dull with dial up back at home..
that was one of d major reasons for me staying offline for so long..
kinda enjoyed my hols ..
met some of my best friends.. .. mimi,ami,kittie..
n cudnt meet others like sid n pooja..
well meeting ami really made my vacation worth while.. especially that last meet with her..
she gifted me a nice photo frame with a pic of me n kittie n sid n her.. it was so lovely..
the moment i saw it i simply lost all my senses.. that pic was such a nice one.. i luv u annie..
well here i am back again to d online world...
well now that am used to broadband at college.. life seemed so dull with dial up back at home..
that was one of d major reasons for me staying offline for so long..
kinda enjoyed my hols ..
met some of my best friends.. .. mimi,ami,kittie..
n cudnt meet others like sid n pooja..
well meeting ami really made my vacation worth while.. especially that last meet with her..
she gifted me a nice photo frame with a pic of me n kittie n sid n her.. it was so lovely..
the moment i saw it i simply lost all my senses.. that pic was such a nice one.. i luv u annie..
Thursday, June 01, 2006
Friday, May 19, 2006
Thursday, May 18, 2006
SHIT...............
holy shit....
Am sure this is a mystery that even John Langdon will not be able to solve....
WHY THE HELL DO I ALWAYS HURT THE PEOPLE WHOM I LOVE.....
love as not only in the love of two enamours, but the love thats based on nothing else but just trust...
Please forgive me...
One last time...
Hope am not again asking for too much...
please, please, please.....
holy shit....
Am sure this is a mystery that even John Langdon will not be able to solve....
WHY THE HELL DO I ALWAYS HURT THE PEOPLE WHOM I LOVE.....
love as not only in the love of two enamours, but the love thats based on nothing else but just trust...
Please forgive me...
One last time...
Hope am not again asking for too much...
please, please, please.....
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
Saturday, May 13, 2006
GOOOOOOOOOOGLE
Quick how many services do google offer... search, gmail, talk, blog, picasso, groups, earth, maps......
well just go n check it urself...
http://www.google.com/intl/en/options/
Quick how many services do google offer... search, gmail, talk, blog, picasso, groups, earth, maps......
well just go n check it urself...
http://www.google.com/intl/en/options/
Friday, May 12, 2006
Theres a lot to learn...
Most of my final year seniors are about to leave the college now to explore newer realms of life n world...
I was talking to one of them a few minutes back and I realised that I have a lot to learn from them, epecially in terms of how to go about life n especially in diplomatic galleries..
half of my sem exams are over.. 3 more papers starting monday..
So I took a break n decided to add something to my blog...
Most of my final year seniors are about to leave the college now to explore newer realms of life n world...
I was talking to one of them a few minutes back and I realised that I have a lot to learn from them, epecially in terms of how to go about life n especially in diplomatic galleries..
half of my sem exams are over.. 3 more papers starting monday..
So I took a break n decided to add something to my blog...
Friday, May 05, 2006
Gosh...
I had faced a situation earlier where one fine evening I was talking to my life n the next morning she simply wont talk to me... At that time I didnt even knew what hit me...
But know that I know everything( or so do i believe...), I guess I have no regrets about it (or do I??)...
And am again facing kinda same situation...
Only that this time its me whose on the other side...
Hope it doesnt strain our relationship...
you are the only one of a kind that i have (...should I say that by default I typed "HAD" )
but the very thing that I was proud of in our relation turned out to be the thing that hit me wham in the face...
N come to think of it this time i was about to change the things b/w the two of us....
Hope am still able to tell her all that I want to..
Oh God, I need help...
Last time, when no one was ther, it was you who came to my rescue...
but theres no one now...
what a pitiable creature am I ....
Needing someone all the time N just when I thinkI have them, something hits me so hard that I simply become blank n numb...
not knowing what happened...
why does it always has to happen with me...
why..
why ...
why me of all the people...
Dont I deserve anyone...
If its like that then atleast pls tell me so so that I stop expecting anything out of life...
coz when u expect something u build a dream around it...
n when u wake up.. u have a smile thinking about that dreammm...
but then stark reality hits u hard that it was only a dream...
n even before u knowu r walking along the shattered pieces of ur dreams...
it doesnt matter whether they hurt u like shradded pieces of glass...
coz by that time u ve become too numb to anything, even to the very pain that caused it...
But i guess theres always a new dawn....
its just that I should stop expecting anything outta life n be contend with whatever i get...
what do i wanna say...????
I dont know....
nothing new in that.....
just that once again I need someone who ll be able to tell me what i want to say...
Argh... another dream....
nops am awake....
no more expectations...
good bye world for the time being...
hope I study something n clear the exams...LOL
will anyone pray for me....
naah another expectation.., another dream.. another temptation...
good bye world...
Theres always a new morning after every night....
Its just that maybe am moving along with the night into new territories....
PS::: Pls dont try to make heads or tails out of it... u wont be able to ..
coz even I cant....
GOOD BYE>>>>
I had faced a situation earlier where one fine evening I was talking to my life n the next morning she simply wont talk to me... At that time I didnt even knew what hit me...
But know that I know everything( or so do i believe...), I guess I have no regrets about it (or do I??)...
And am again facing kinda same situation...
Only that this time its me whose on the other side...
Hope it doesnt strain our relationship...
you are the only one of a kind that i have (...should I say that by default I typed "HAD" )
but the very thing that I was proud of in our relation turned out to be the thing that hit me wham in the face...
N come to think of it this time i was about to change the things b/w the two of us....
Hope am still able to tell her all that I want to..
Oh God, I need help...
Last time, when no one was ther, it was you who came to my rescue...
but theres no one now...
what a pitiable creature am I ....
Needing someone all the time N just when I thinkI have them, something hits me so hard that I simply become blank n numb...
not knowing what happened...
why does it always has to happen with me...
why..
why ...
why me of all the people...
Dont I deserve anyone...
If its like that then atleast pls tell me so so that I stop expecting anything out of life...
coz when u expect something u build a dream around it...
n when u wake up.. u have a smile thinking about that dreammm...
but then stark reality hits u hard that it was only a dream...
n even before u knowu r walking along the shattered pieces of ur dreams...
it doesnt matter whether they hurt u like shradded pieces of glass...
coz by that time u ve become too numb to anything, even to the very pain that caused it...
But i guess theres always a new dawn....
its just that I should stop expecting anything outta life n be contend with whatever i get...
what do i wanna say...????
I dont know....
nothing new in that.....
just that once again I need someone who ll be able to tell me what i want to say...
Argh... another dream....
nops am awake....
no more expectations...
good bye world for the time being...
hope I study something n clear the exams...LOL
will anyone pray for me....
naah another expectation.., another dream.. another temptation...
good bye world...
Theres always a new morning after every night....
Its just that maybe am moving along with the night into new territories....
PS::: Pls dont try to make heads or tails out of it... u wont be able to ..
coz even I cant....
GOOD BYE>>>>
well gmail, after being out for about an hour n half is back now n I must say a hell lotta people out there were as busy commenting about it as myself...
I guess everyone wants his 12 secs of fame LOL...
screen shots here...
I guess everyone wants his 12 secs of fame LOL...
screen shots here...
http://org72.zorpia.com/0/1700/10881791.eb0ed0.jpg
http://org72.zorpia.com/0/1700/10881794.6ca5a4.jpg
http://groups.google.com/group/Gmail-down/
browse_thread/thread/3c6fac6aa62724a6/9be0c4b51d2aaf96
IS gmail DOWN???
well I had logged into my gmail account, was working alright, all of a sudden inbox just refused to open up. I closed the window n tried opening it again.. but it said
502 Server error...!!!
Its been more than a five mins I guess but it still failed to open up..
N its still not working I believe..
Phew...
And I thought I was a pretty grown up n matured person.. But when I faced the first real test of life I was completely clueless as to how am I supposed to go about it... Well these things were pretty good when discussed about in G.D.s n all that but now I know lifes is not all a bed of roses...
As for myself.. had the physics pracs yesterday.. was the worst ever prac I ever did simply coz I didn t feel like doing it LOL.. well actually it wasnt all that bad.. did the experiment gracefully.. just that didnt do the other half coz I was pretty bored up by that time so I submitted the paper n left the lab..
Have my Engineering Practise Workshop Prac today n i guess that would be intresting coz atleast its something thats useful in day to day life n not some stupid spectrometer experiment to calculate the wavelenth of different colours.. I mean hello a class 8 student knows the range of VIBGYOR ...
anyways ... this blog is a great thing.. atleast I have a place to put myself down somewhere....
And I thought I was a pretty grown up n matured person.. But when I faced the first real test of life I was completely clueless as to how am I supposed to go about it... Well these things were pretty good when discussed about in G.D.s n all that but now I know lifes is not all a bed of roses...
As for myself.. had the physics pracs yesterday.. was the worst ever prac I ever did simply coz I didn t feel like doing it LOL.. well actually it wasnt all that bad.. did the experiment gracefully.. just that didnt do the other half coz I was pretty bored up by that time so I submitted the paper n left the lab..
Have my Engineering Practise Workshop Prac today n i guess that would be intresting coz atleast its something thats useful in day to day life n not some stupid spectrometer experiment to calculate the wavelenth of different colours.. I mean hello a class 8 student knows the range of VIBGYOR ...
anyways ... this blog is a great thing.. atleast I have a place to put myself down somewhere....
Hmm...
well, the only constant is a change.. but how good a change is , it cant always be gauged all that easily...
You always try to do your best, but sometimes it isnt appreciated at all, you become a culprit, it hurts somewhere deep down there..
I don't know what to say... am all blank n emotionless..
Tears rolled down my eyes when a friend hung up on me but immediately I got a call from home, n I never knew I could control myself so quickly, but thankfully I did...
I trusted someone n I still do TRUST her.. even though she walked out on me about an year ago but i STILL trust her coz I believe in her...
I want to trust others N its not all that easy but I know one thing that if I trust anyone, I have no qualms about it.. coz when you trust anyone, you trust them with your life, no questions are asked and you are ready to face the consequences no matter what...
Its completely your decision whether you can n want to trust a person or not.. But once you do, make sure no questions are asked as to why you do trust that person..If its not so then its not trust but just a feel good with a person for the time being.. Its just like the way you trust yourself, no matter what, you always consider yourself to be correct.. Its the same when you trust someone else.. no matter WHAT that person is never wrong, if anythings be wrong then its the situation which makes the person appear wrong...
well, the only constant is a change.. but how good a change is , it cant always be gauged all that easily...
You always try to do your best, but sometimes it isnt appreciated at all, you become a culprit, it hurts somewhere deep down there..
I don't know what to say... am all blank n emotionless..
Tears rolled down my eyes when a friend hung up on me but immediately I got a call from home, n I never knew I could control myself so quickly, but thankfully I did...
I trusted someone n I still do TRUST her.. even though she walked out on me about an year ago but i STILL trust her coz I believe in her...
I want to trust others N its not all that easy but I know one thing that if I trust anyone, I have no qualms about it.. coz when you trust anyone, you trust them with your life, no questions are asked and you are ready to face the consequences no matter what...
Its completely your decision whether you can n want to trust a person or not.. But once you do, make sure no questions are asked as to why you do trust that person..If its not so then its not trust but just a feel good with a person for the time being.. Its just like the way you trust yourself, no matter what, you always consider yourself to be correct.. Its the same when you trust someone else.. no matter WHAT that person is never wrong, if anythings be wrong then its the situation which makes the person appear wrong...
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
SHIT ON THIS WORLD... Big time....
why do I say so...
well here I am, sitting in the airconditioned computer lab of my college..
I thought I ll come here, relax a bit in the cool air(its scorching hot with high humidity out there..)n then try to study(remember my sem exams are going on...).. I check my mail.. n heres this mail by someone stating shes gonna date tht person (if u r reading this ..^*^&%^%)..
arrghhh....^&^&^*(^%$*&^*&)()^$&^)......
I hate this place.....
I hate everyone....
including u....
why do I say so...
well here I am, sitting in the airconditioned computer lab of my college..
I thought I ll come here, relax a bit in the cool air(its scorching hot with high humidity out there..)n then try to study(remember my sem exams are going on...).. I check my mail.. n heres this mail by someone stating shes gonna date tht person (if u r reading this ..^*^&%^%)..
arrghhh....^&^&^*(^%$*&^*&)()^$&^)......
I hate this place.....
I hate everyone....
including u....
My first n only poem so far...
dedicated to my life whos no more with me...
am sorry for what ever happened n the way thins turned out...
N it hurts but finally I know its time to say goodbye....
"AM LIFELESS WITHOUT YOU"
" The aura of your beauty
The charm of your smile,
the warmth of your company
the serenity of your presence.
These are but a few things
that I miss.
But the saga of your friendship
is something that I am gonna adore
for the rest of my life.
coz it was only after I met you
I knew I have met life.
Life's a precious gift
and friends like you
are accolades of life
Life's precious
and you are priceless.
I know this
coz I've bathed in the gleam
of your friedship
And I never thought I'll have to
but its time to bid adieu
So I say the Good byes
with only one hope one desire
That may when we meet again
on some crossroads of life
Its only the good time we talk of
and let the rest be forgotten about"
dedicated to my life whos no more with me...
am sorry for what ever happened n the way thins turned out...
N it hurts but finally I know its time to say goodbye....
"AM LIFELESS WITHOUT YOU"
" The aura of your beauty
The charm of your smile,
the warmth of your company
the serenity of your presence.
These are but a few things
that I miss.
But the saga of your friendship
is something that I am gonna adore
for the rest of my life.
coz it was only after I met you
I knew I have met life.
Life's a precious gift
and friends like you
are accolades of life
Life's precious
and you are priceless.
I know this
coz I've bathed in the gleam
of your friedship
And I never thought I'll have to
but its time to bid adieu
So I say the Good byes
with only one hope one desire
That may when we meet again
on some crossroads of life
Its only the good time we talk of
and let the rest be forgotten about"
"WATCH YOUR WORDS"
one more thing...
Things that you might do when you are too oblivious of the rest of the world, especially the things done n words said w/o thinking abt the consequences might inflict the worst ever attacks on yourself.. You can be your worst enemy if you dont think wht r u doing n wht r u saying..
I guess I lost a great friend coz of my actions.. though we still talk to each other but I know I have lost it..
Like its said by the great Indian poet Kabir in one of his "doha"'s
"rahiman dhaaga prem ka , mat todo chatkhaaye..
tode se phir naa jude..
judi to gaanth par jaaye..."
mean...
"Dont break the threads of love/friendship/relation..
coz once broken, it wont be the same..
even if you are able to patch it up...
there will always be the knot.."
I never intended to hurt you or anyone else..
I never wanted the things to be the way they turned out...
I guess you believe that you lost a friend coz of me..
n may be even she thinks the same...
but trust me it was never my intention..
I didnt even know where my actions will lead me to..
and that I guess, was my only fault...
love you a lot..
n am sorry..
hope you forgive me...
sometime...
one more thing...
Things that you might do when you are too oblivious of the rest of the world, especially the things done n words said w/o thinking abt the consequences might inflict the worst ever attacks on yourself.. You can be your worst enemy if you dont think wht r u doing n wht r u saying..
I guess I lost a great friend coz of my actions.. though we still talk to each other but I know I have lost it..
Like its said by the great Indian poet Kabir in one of his "doha"'s
"rahiman dhaaga prem ka , mat todo chatkhaaye..
tode se phir naa jude..
judi to gaanth par jaaye..."
mean...
"Dont break the threads of love/friendship/relation..
coz once broken, it wont be the same..
even if you are able to patch it up...
there will always be the knot.."
Sorry to you P.... ,
I never intended to hurt you or anyone else..
I never wanted the things to be the way they turned out...
I guess you believe that you lost a friend coz of me..
n may be even she thinks the same...
but trust me it was never my intention..
I didnt even know where my actions will lead me to..
and that I guess, was my only fault...
love you a lot..
n am sorry..
hope you forgive me...
sometime...
hmm... well my sems pracs are going on tr now.. Had my chem pracs today.. did it well i guess.. The thing is, even if I know what I am supposed to do, I dont feel like doing it..
I guess am yet to grow up n get matured.. n I thought I was not a kid..
anyways.. Am in such big confusions all the time, especially when it comes to ppl around me.. I have just got over one big chunk of a hell.. n I guess I ve gone rt straight into another....
cant make heads or tails out of this..?? Dont worry, no one can.. and those who can make me too happy n then put me into deep shit..
take care all of you.. bye..
I guess am yet to grow up n get matured.. n I thought I was not a kid..
anyways.. Am in such big confusions all the time, especially when it comes to ppl around me.. I have just got over one big chunk of a hell.. n I guess I ve gone rt straight into another....
cant make heads or tails out of this..?? Dont worry, no one can.. and those who can make me too happy n then put me into deep shit..
take care all of you.. bye..
Friday, April 21, 2006
Hi to one n all...
Well this is a small window for the world to peek into my life...
Inspired by a friend of mine..
Lets c what all i put out here..
for starters..
Rt now am at NIT trichy doing metallurgical n material engineering..
Passsed out of DPS Noida in 2005..
n more about my friends and life later..
tc
Well this is a small window for the world to peek into my life...
Inspired by a friend of mine..
Lets c what all i put out here..
for starters..
Rt now am at NIT trichy doing metallurgical n material engineering..
Passsed out of DPS Noida in 2005..
n more about my friends and life later..
tc
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