Am ashamed...



well, its been a real long time since I ve STUDIED, but the fact was that till date it wasnt much to me...
I mean i never actually did anything to work upon it.. all I did everytime was to cry over the spilled milk n then wait for the next time and repeat everything all over again...

But today, after a REAL long time I was ashamed of my situation....
I was there in my friends room, and his roommates were talking about what all have they finished, ( ammm, well the cycle tests are from tomorrow) and the smile on his face, the admire which his roommates had for him, put me to shame..
they weren't mockng me or anything, but it was the first time that I felt real ashamed of myself. I man I was supposed to be there at that position, of being talked about by my peers in that way, and here I was, another inconsequent being who has somehow managed to scrap his way into one of the India's premiere institute.

Well, I guess its never too late to make a new beginning.

and I guess I had all this feeling only cause I have really been studying for the couple of last days.
Well its a little late to do well in this cycles, but still I can improve upon my score as compared to my last years performance.

Well at the moment my blog has restricted access to just one person, so I ll use this to say to you that for once am real sorry for myself as in what have I done to myself.
Time to mend my ways.

Well will blog to you in details after the tests get over on thursday.
Take care.
Love u.
Bye.

Zo lang er leven is, is er hoop.

• Literal translation: "As long as there's life, there is hope."

Time flies. Latin: Tempus fugit!

• Don't trudge mud into the house of love.

"I am only one, but I am still one; I cannot do everything, but still I can do something; and because I cannot do everything I will not refuse to do the something that I can do."

• Edward Everett Hale

You have the right to remain silent. Anything you say will be misquoted, then used against you.

"I think you are gonna find, when this shit is over... I think you're gonna find yourself one smilin' motherfucker. The thing is Butch, right now, you've got ability. But painful as it may be, ability don't last. And your days are just about over. Now that's a hard motherfuckin' fact of life. But it's a fact of life your ass is gonna hafta get realistic about. See this business is filled to the brim with unrealistic motherfuckers. Motherfuckers who thought their ass would age like wine. If you mean it turns to vinegar, it does. If you mean it gets better with age, it don't. Besides Butch, how many fights you think you got left in you anyway? Two? Boxers don't have an 'old timer's day.' You came close, but you never made it, and if you were gonna make it, you woulda made it before now."

• Marsellus Wallace

Everything passes away - suffering, pain, blood, hunger, pestilence. The sword will pass away too, but the stars will still remain when the shadows of our presence and our deeds have vanished from the earth. There is no man who does not know that. Why, then, will we not turn our eyes towards the stars? Why? ~ Mikhail Bulgakov, from The White Guard

LOVE

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love". ~ Neil Gaiman

A child, like your stomach, doesn't need all you can afford to give it.

Money can't buy happiness, but neither can poverty.

What do you do..??

What do you do when you are concerned about someone, wanna know whats goin on.. but still dont wana do anything.. or rather..

bye

Ahhh..


well I have done whatever I intended to do but I never knew I ll sound like such a loser..
Or like someone says.. Do I choose to be a loser??

anyways...
had stomach ache since last evening, so didnt take any dinner or snacks, just had a tea at around 1,
N now am hungary.. but I guess all shops will be closed now...
N have got no biscuits left with me in room either ..
`:-(

I miss home...
bye

I dont know....


I dont know whether whatever am gonna do now is right or not...
In most probability, its gonna be bad for me..
real bad...
But what do you do when theres no one around..??
And you feel as if what all you have done was better not done..!!
Theres no one around to share with.. Actually it would be weired but I dont wanna share myself with anyone anymore except for one...


Sorry Annie, whenever you read this.. Am not mailing you coz I dont wanna disturb you right now..
I guess your hands are already full with quite a lot to do at college...
I really dont wanna trouble you anymore..
Am sorry....


The moment I thought about it, my left eye started twitching...
I dont know whether thats bad or not..
But I asked the same question to myself whether it was bad or what...
and the answer I got from myself was that I dont really care how bad is it, I just have to do it...


Am getting nowhere in right now..

God only knows whats gonna be my destiny...


Take care world...
N sleep well...


Good night..!!

BTW..
i ve just changed my settings for my timezone..
so blogger now effectively shows my current time..
LOL..
bye

Hi again...



well bloggin after quite some time now..
Actually my college net conncn was acting up a lil bit weired..
so it was kinda tuff to do normal work...
N the funny part was even my best friend had kinda same problem..
I mean even her net conncn both at home n college were kinda actin up..
weired na..

anyways...
am kinda happy..
Y??
well y not??
y should one need a reason to be happy..
The weathers gr8 outside..
its cool breezey morning with rains on the horizon...
N am missin my best friend..
but the sweet memories of us together in the past makes me feel happy..
luv u annie..
what else..
??
well got myself a 4.1 speaker system...
so wont have to reach in for those headphones everytime I wanna listen to something nice...
My college rooms not spacious enough for a 5.1.. :-(
anyways.. am happy...
I guess am finally gettin to what n where I wanted to be..
well not a bad start..
especially after my acads of the last three yrs..
which at its best were nothing but..
better left unsaid about...
anyways hopefully.. will be back soon..
take care..
bye..

HI once again..

Its 0323 in the morning rt now...
Well we had a small fire incident at arnd 2230 hrs last nite so as aresult theres no current in hostels..
so I decided to spend the nite in the net lab..
not bad...
I mean i wanted to study for my exams starting from aug 11, and lo theres no power..
N ppl say tht I dont study LOL..