someone has grown up big time....

i love this...
this world is not all that bad...
my best friend is online..
i love this place...

and now am chatting to her...
agreed true friends walk in when the rest of the world walks out...

love u annie...

SHIT ON THIS WORLD... Big time....

why do I say so...
well here I am, sitting in the airconditioned computer lab of my college..
I thought I ll come here, relax a bit in the cool air(its scorching hot with high humidity out there..)n then try to study(remember my sem exams are going on...).. I check my mail.. n heres this mail by someone stating shes gonna date tht person (if u r reading this ..^*^&%^%)..
arrghhh....^&^&^*(^%$*&^*&)()^$&^)......




I hate this place.....

I hate everyone....

including u....

"Am Loving it..."


I guess am gonna love blogging.. A good way of investing my time..
But aint I suppose to be studying for my sem exams rt now..??
well.....

My first n only poem so far...
dedicated to my life whos no more with me...
am sorry for what ever happened n the way thins turned out...
N it hurts but finally I know its time to say goodbye....


"AM LIFELESS WITHOUT YOU"



" The aura of your beauty
The charm of your smile,
the warmth of your company
the serenity of your presence.
These are but a few things
that I miss.
But the saga of your friendship
is something that I am gonna adore
for the rest of my life.

coz it was only after I met you
I knew I have met life.

Life's a precious gift
and friends like you
are accolades of life

Life's precious
and you are priceless.

I know this
coz I've bathed in the gleam
of your friedship

And I never thought I'll have to
but its time to bid adieu
So I say the Good byes
with only one hope one desire
That may when we meet again
on some crossroads of life
Its only the good time we talk of
and let the rest be forgotten about"

"WATCH YOUR WORDS"


one more thing...
Things that you might do when you are too oblivious of the rest of the world, especially the things done n words said w/o thinking abt the consequences might inflict the worst ever attacks on yourself.. You can be your worst enemy if you dont think wht r u doing n wht r u saying..

I guess I lost a great friend coz of my actions.. though we still talk to each other but I know I have lost it..
Like its said by the great Indian poet Kabir in one of his "doha"'s

"rahiman dhaaga prem ka , mat todo chatkhaaye..
tode se phir naa jude..
judi to gaanth par jaaye..."

mean...

"Dont break the threads of love/friendship/relation..
coz once broken, it wont be the same..
even if you are able to patch it up...
there will always be the knot.."

Sorry to you P.... ,

I never intended to hurt you or anyone else..
I never wanted the things to be the way they turned out...
I guess you believe that you lost a friend coz of me..
n may be even she thinks the same...
but trust me it was never my intention..
I didnt even know where my actions will lead me to..
and that I guess, was my only fault...
love you a lot..
n am sorry..
hope you forgive me...
sometime...

hmm... well my sems pracs are going on tr now.. Had my chem pracs today.. did it well i guess.. The thing is, even if I know what I am supposed to do, I dont feel like doing it..
I guess am yet to grow up n get matured.. n I thought I was not a kid..
anyways.. Am in such big confusions all the time, especially when it comes to ppl around me.. I have just got over one big chunk of a hell.. n I guess I ve gone rt straight into another....
cant make heads or tails out of this..?? Dont worry, no one can.. and those who can make me too happy n then put me into deep shit..
take care all of you.. bye..